margaritas yummy!

well Antonio sure knows how to make a mean margarita... tonight was fun with aaron even though he fell asleep. I am on strike officially from starbucks and the babysrus overpriced crap...... it is so late but I will ramble anyways earlier I had so much to say but after a long time chatting online words seem few. Been working on the house -how much I would like to be done and start living again ever since we have moved in it has been something- I guess I am so spoiled with the new houses I have lived in most of my life this is such a chore with rocky yard and a old house on top of a interested baby. I really wish I felt like my contributions mattered more to this family. I wish we had some support like my family around-not that I want someone else to take care of my responsibilities but it would be nice to have some experienced trustworthy people in my life for a change. I feel sad about aaron he tries to be a good husband/provider I am not knocking him but I really think I have higher expectations and that sounds bitchy but we are on diff wave lengths says hippie gary? so its a wait and see I think once the house/work/life settles a bit -wait settles like in settles your standards that is not good? well I am still working on this and wavelengths and all of the above to fig out things so this is it for now..........the way it is.